One of the things I have hated most about being obese are those moments where you realize you don't fit. I didn't fit into the roller coaster at Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk last summer. I didn't fit through the turnstile at Big 5 or at our local stadium. I didn't fit in the seats at one of my local movie theaters. It is soul crushing. It can take me from a good mood to a bottomless pit of shame and self hatred in a second.
As I have lost weight I have found that I am able to fit most things again. I fit the movie theater seats last week. I fit the turnstile at Big 5. But none of those things can beat what happened today.
I chaperoned my daughters class field trip today. I have not been able to do that before because I knew I couldn't fit on the bus, or walk more than a few steps at a time. But today I did it. I fit on the bus. I EASILY fit on the bus. I had to struggle not to cry like a fool in front of a bus full of 2nd graders. I also walked quite a way during this trip and had no issues. I fit into the seats of the arena we went to....seats that I had not fit into several months ago when I had gone for another event with my husband. I felt normal today. I felt like any other parent enjoying a day with her child's class. I didn't even think about my size most of the day. I just enjoyed myself.
So I just want to say that I love that yellow school bus. I love everything it represents for me. School buses rock!
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