I posted a video on my YouTube channel today talking about a medical issue I have had for many years. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia in my 20s. It is a painful, debilitating disease that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy (well...maybe my WORST enemy, maybe not). But my disease is not what this blog post is about.
I am truly humbled and in awe of the amount of love and support that my viewers showed for me in their comments on that video. I almost didn't even post it. I didn't want the world to see me weak, in pain, and so down in the dumps. I don't like the world to see that image. But I really felt like I needed to be honest. The outpouring of support has been a huge blessing, and it fills my heart.
So often we as human beings get stuck on the negative. We look at the world and we see the negativity and the uncaring or hurtful nature of some people. It is easy to forget just how many amazing people there are out there just waiting for a chance to show you what a beautiful place the world can be.
For all of you who have supported me through my journey I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Greek yogurt!
So I have a new addiction. I made my husband go out last night after 10pm because I realized I was out....and I NEEDED it for this morning. No, I am not sniffing glue. I am madly in love with Fage plain greek yogurt. I have eaten it every day for breakfast for the last week. I might eat it every day for the rest of my life.
So much protien, so many things you can add in, so low in fat and all the other bad stuff. Oh yeah, I love the greek yogurt.
I have been having half a cup. I add in 2 stevia in the raw packets and one strawberry or 3 raspberries. Yesterday I didnt have berries...so I just threw in the smallest little bit of banana extract. Delish! Just wanted to share. :)
So much protien, so many things you can add in, so low in fat and all the other bad stuff. Oh yeah, I love the greek yogurt.
I have been having half a cup. I add in 2 stevia in the raw packets and one strawberry or 3 raspberries. Yesterday I didnt have berries...so I just threw in the smallest little bit of banana extract. Delish! Just wanted to share. :)
Guy on a bike
Dear guy on a bike,
You are an ass. You don't know me. You know nothing about who I am or what I stand for. You dont know that I used to be a lifeguard, a highschool athlete, or that I could leg press 1500 pounds at 17 years old. You dont know that a mere ten years ago I could have ridden circles around you on your rinky dink 20 year old walmart bike. You also dont know that the day you decided to open your mouth I was within 2 weeks of having gastric bypass surgery and I was scared.
"Hey fatty! You need a bike, but bad!"
How original. Truely. Gosh, if only I had met you a few years ago...I may have been inspired to drop my 200 extra pounds by getting a bike. Wait....I HAVE a bike. I have a very expensive Trek mountian bike. So I guess I dont really NEED a bike. Maybe I need something else. Let me think. I KNOW! I need for people like you to grow up. You were clearly over the age of 50, which is old enough to know better than to yell nasty things at young women. I was minding my own business pumping gas. I didnt ask for your opinion, or you hurtful words.
You are slime. You are lower than slime.
Do you know what I did after you yelled at me, shamed me, embarrassed me? I went home and I ate. Yep...that is what you inspired. But I DIDNT cry, because you are not worth my tears.
You did not inspire me to lose weight, or to go on a bike ride. You did not shame me into fixing myself. What you did was to make yourself look like an ignorant ass.
I know you were shocked in the way I responded to your comment, I could see that you expected me to say nothing. I guess I was supposed to hold my head down in shame and beat myself up a bit.
The fact is that in order for me to get healthy I had to stop beating myself up. So maybe next time you yell something out at a stranger you should be prepared for the fact that it may be you that ends up getting beat up.
That is all.
You are an ass. You don't know me. You know nothing about who I am or what I stand for. You dont know that I used to be a lifeguard, a highschool athlete, or that I could leg press 1500 pounds at 17 years old. You dont know that a mere ten years ago I could have ridden circles around you on your rinky dink 20 year old walmart bike. You also dont know that the day you decided to open your mouth I was within 2 weeks of having gastric bypass surgery and I was scared.
"Hey fatty! You need a bike, but bad!"
How original. Truely. Gosh, if only I had met you a few years ago...I may have been inspired to drop my 200 extra pounds by getting a bike. Wait....I HAVE a bike. I have a very expensive Trek mountian bike. So I guess I dont really NEED a bike. Maybe I need something else. Let me think. I KNOW! I need for people like you to grow up. You were clearly over the age of 50, which is old enough to know better than to yell nasty things at young women. I was minding my own business pumping gas. I didnt ask for your opinion, or you hurtful words.
You are slime. You are lower than slime.
Do you know what I did after you yelled at me, shamed me, embarrassed me? I went home and I ate. Yep...that is what you inspired. But I DIDNT cry, because you are not worth my tears.
You did not inspire me to lose weight, or to go on a bike ride. You did not shame me into fixing myself. What you did was to make yourself look like an ignorant ass.
I know you were shocked in the way I responded to your comment, I could see that you expected me to say nothing. I guess I was supposed to hold my head down in shame and beat myself up a bit.
The fact is that in order for me to get healthy I had to stop beating myself up. So maybe next time you yell something out at a stranger you should be prepared for the fact that it may be you that ends up getting beat up.
That is all.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
GPS is ruining my marriage!
Not what I thought I would be writing about today...but here it is. GPS is ruining my marriage. Exaggeration? Maybe.
My husband and I got our GPS unit as a wedding gift 2.5 years ago. I love it. I follow it. I use it regularly. My husband hates it, thinks he knows better than the "bossy" lady in the box (even if he has NOT looked at a map), and refuses to go where it leads him. This leads to me wanting to beat him to death with the GPS unit. Today we went on a 2 hour road trip to drop off his grandmother and then 2 hours home. We went to a city we had never been before, to eat at a place we had never been before. He did not know where we were going...yet he still got snippy with me the second I turned on the GPS to program in our coordinates. The trip did not start off well....because I was dumb enough to let him drive.
Is it all men? Or just mine? He seriously had me change the voice on our unit to the Australian lady for like a year because she sounded less bossy. I had to switch it back finally because she couldn't pronounce any of our street names correctly.
On the weight loss front things are good. I have discovered that I really HATE eating out now. We went to Denny's yesterday and Black Bear Diner today. I ordered well, and ate within my plan. But I have a hard time logging nutritional info when I have to order a turkey burger then pull off the bun. Plus I order without sauces or lettuce. It is more hassle than it is worth, and I make better food anyway. Wow, things really have changed.
My husband and I got our GPS unit as a wedding gift 2.5 years ago. I love it. I follow it. I use it regularly. My husband hates it, thinks he knows better than the "bossy" lady in the box (even if he has NOT looked at a map), and refuses to go where it leads him. This leads to me wanting to beat him to death with the GPS unit. Today we went on a 2 hour road trip to drop off his grandmother and then 2 hours home. We went to a city we had never been before, to eat at a place we had never been before. He did not know where we were going...yet he still got snippy with me the second I turned on the GPS to program in our coordinates. The trip did not start off well....because I was dumb enough to let him drive.
Is it all men? Or just mine? He seriously had me change the voice on our unit to the Australian lady for like a year because she sounded less bossy. I had to switch it back finally because she couldn't pronounce any of our street names correctly.
On the weight loss front things are good. I have discovered that I really HATE eating out now. We went to Denny's yesterday and Black Bear Diner today. I ordered well, and ate within my plan. But I have a hard time logging nutritional info when I have to order a turkey burger then pull off the bun. Plus I order without sauces or lettuce. It is more hassle than it is worth, and I make better food anyway. Wow, things really have changed.
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Blog, blog, bloggity blog.
Ok, here we go. Deep breath. I am starting have started a blog!
My name is Jennifer. On August 10th, 2012 I underwent gastric bypass surgery. I changed myself and my life forever. This is NOT a blog for or against surgery. This is simply my journey, as I live it. I also make videos/vlogs on YouTube about this journey. My highest recorded weight was 350 pounds. I weighed 329 on the day of my surgery 6 weeks ago. Today I weigh 288. I never thought I would be willing to share that number with any single person, let alone the whole world.
I have a daughter, she is 7. She is an amazing child, a wonderful person...and she inspires me everyday. She is what finally made me see that I needed this surgery. She is active. She likes to ski, she plays soccer, she loves to go on loooooong bike rides. I want to do those things with her. I want to explore new activities and new places with her. I want to live to see her grow up and someday become a mother herself.
So if I make vlogs then why do I need a blog? Well...I like to write. I also feel that there are certain things that are better in blog format. Plus I am totally trying to take over the internet, so come back and see me often.
That is about it for tonight. If there is anything you want to know please ask. If you have the time and have not already watched them feel free to take a look at my YouTube channel. Thanks for reading my short little intro.
My name is Jennifer. On August 10th, 2012 I underwent gastric bypass surgery. I changed myself and my life forever. This is NOT a blog for or against surgery. This is simply my journey, as I live it. I also make videos/vlogs on YouTube about this journey. My highest recorded weight was 350 pounds. I weighed 329 on the day of my surgery 6 weeks ago. Today I weigh 288. I never thought I would be willing to share that number with any single person, let alone the whole world.
I have a daughter, she is 7. She is an amazing child, a wonderful person...and she inspires me everyday. She is what finally made me see that I needed this surgery. She is active. She likes to ski, she plays soccer, she loves to go on loooooong bike rides. I want to do those things with her. I want to explore new activities and new places with her. I want to live to see her grow up and someday become a mother herself.
So if I make vlogs then why do I need a blog? Well...I like to write. I also feel that there are certain things that are better in blog format. Plus I am totally trying to take over the internet, so come back and see me often.
That is about it for tonight. If there is anything you want to know please ask. If you have the time and have not already watched them feel free to take a look at my YouTube channel. Thanks for reading my short little intro.
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